As it turns out, if you meditate long enough the devils of self-criticism and fear may decide to make an appearance. In my reading about meditation I had come across allusions to this but I didn't pay attention, in part because I couldn't imagine it. Meditation had either offered me some gifts of clarity or it seemed absolutely innocuous. Most mornings when I meditate nothing much happens. My mind races - I forget to focus - I return to focus - I forget, I return. The bell rings, my to-do list is ready, the day begins. Devils, schmevils what could go wrong?